Today was BRUTAL. I'm not going to lie. All I kept thinking about all day was the food I wasn't going to have. I woke up in the morning and watched Leyton and Bill eat cereal and I'm sure I was giving them skunk eye the whole time. I made my morning smoothie and hated every minute of it. Every sip I wanted to gag.
At lunch I ran an errand and picked up lunch for my boss. I wanted to knock each person's Chipotle lunch right off their table. The skinny ones I hated even more. How come they could eat there and look like that? The fat people, well I hated them too. I was one of them. I was angry at them for being part of my team. Why couldn't we control ourselves?
I also felt like I had been hit like a mack truck, or coming down with a flu. I had no energy and everything seemed to ache. Even my eyeballs felt weird. By the time I got home I was hungry, the first time I felt like eating all day really. I made myself a bowl of just avocado, tomato and some chia seeds. It was delicious. I later had a big salad too as my appetite came back.
I finished the day with a hot hot tub and a book. That tub seemed to help wash away many of the things that I felt during the day. I didn't want to go to bed angry or with these thoughts in my head.
Here's to a better day tomorrow.