Sunday, September 30, 2012

Getting clean.

Hi, it's Stacey, remember me?  I'm the girl that used to blog every day.  Yeah well for at least the next 14 days I can assure you I will be writing on here each day.  You see, I've started a cleanse.  I've thought about doing one a million times.  I'm not sure what finally motivated me enough to give it a go, but here I am.  Today is day one.

I've already been asked a couple times today by those following me on Instagram and Facebook why I'm doing this.  I'll try to give an answer that you all will understand.  I'm a mess.  I've gained weight, lost weight over and over again.  Too many times I want to admit and too many times for a 36 year old.  I've even written about it on here. 

My eating habits are terrible.  I eat out nearly every day for lunch and I can assure you I'm not making healthy choices.  Overall though, I just don't feel good.  I'm tired, I wake up feeling hung over and my digestive system is a mess.

I want to be better, I want to live better.  A cleanse felt like what I needed.  I didn't want to be able to "eat whatever I wanted and just count points, count calorie."  I know that what I am eating is an addiction and I need to break these habits, not make excuses for why I do them or make them fit into an eating schdule.

So with the help of a friend Scott I am taking this 14 day cleanse journey and have one day under my belt.  This is a sample of what I have had today.

In a quick summary, it is raw healthy vegetables and some fruit and a breakfast shake.  No sugar, soy, wheat, dairy or meat.  It's 14 days of eating NOTHING like I eat now.

One day in and how do I feel?  Like shit.  I'm tired, I have a headache beyond belief and I feel a little sick to my stomach.  To me though I take that as the first sign that I have a problem.  I'm sure it's a problem that a 44oz Diet Dr. Pepper and a two cheeseburger meal at McDonald's could fix right now, but seriously....that is not the answer.  One thing I have already realized tonight is that I didn't feel hungry much of the day....except for when I ate.  Then I was ravenous.  My body literally has no idea how to tell the difference between full or hungry and when I get food I just want to keep eating.

It's day one.  I have 13 more days to go and I know I will get there.  Scott said something amazing to me tonight.

"This could be the last time you have to do this.  Think about that."

So, that is my goal.  It's not to lose 100 pounds.  It's not to be a vegetarian or vegan or raw eater or exercise novice.  If some of those things happen along this journey then that is great.  My goal is for this to be the last time.  I don't want to keep having these first days to the rest of whatever.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Handy Stacey

This weekend I had an epic DIY.  I replaced the screen on my iPhone.  This was one of those things that I was actually really excited to do, until I took out the bazillion screws and tugged at the mother board.  It was then that I thought, "What the F$%K am I doing?"  I knew right then that it would never work.  I knew I'd put it back together only to find pieces that didn't get put back.  I'd have a camera that didn't work or speakers that sounded funny or just a completely black screen.  At that point I figured, "Oh well" and just pressed on.

I'm happy to say that the phone works perfect and the new screen looks great.  I'm so happy with myself for doing this and not just using it as an excuse for a new phone.  It was more fun changing the screen quite honestly.

As for the blog...I'm really in a hump.  I just don't feel it anymore, but I'm having a hard time shutting it down.  There are so many things I could have written about in the last week but I've really had more fun just living them than writing them down.  So, my posts on here may be sporadic and you may stop reading.  One day it's either going to come back to me or I'll close up Pill's Place for good.  Only time will tell.

Friday, September 07, 2012

Monsters and Dinosaurs

Leyton has always been pretty good about going to bed.  We've had our moments, but for the most part we say goodnight and leave and he puts himself to sleep.  There were always key things that helped this situation: complete darkness and white noise/rain noise.  If there was ever any light in the room he would be completely distracted and would not fall asleep.  It also means he wakes up early in the morning because if his eyes open and there is light HE IS UP.

This week a situation has developed.  On the times when Leyton doesn't necessarily want to go to bed the hubs and I have always practiced the cry it out method.  I know this is touchy for everyone but it is what worked for us.  The other good part about it is I really learned the differences between Leyton's cries.  There is a huge difference between a fake/angry cry and a something is wrong cry.  I always respond to the something is wrong cries.

This week, the minute we walked out the door the something is wrong cries began.  They are typically hysterical right from the get go.  He typically is lying down when he does them (we have a video monitor which I think is key on the cry it out method).  What we have discovered is we believe he is scared.  When we go in the room he wants us to stay and hold his hand because there are monsters and dinosaurs.  So, we stay.

I'm not sure how to handle the scared issue.  Do I start doing a light in the room?  How do I best introduce it?  I'm afraid it is going to open up a whole other can of worms.  Have you experienced this scared phase???  What did you do?  HELP PLEASE!

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

Spaz Nugget

Right now my favorite thing to call you is "Spaz Nugget."  Eventually I know you will call yourself this since you already call yourself both "Leyton" and "Giggy."  It's important in the Ball household to understand that throughout your life you are going to have many names.

I'm going to fall into every parent cliche and ask this important question....

How did we go from this.....

to this??

It's just too much for a Mommy to accept.  I feel like it has been forever since I've done an update about you and I want to make sure you can look back on this and laugh or at least know why you are spending so much on therapy.

You are a crazy handful, but man you are so much fun.  You can easily go from sweetest child on the block to the craziest, hence the name Spaz Nugget.  You are developing a VERY independent spirit and want to decide exactly what you want to do in every situation.  If we want you to do something different from that then all hell breaks loose.  You have started saying things like "I'm very mad at you Mommy" when you aren't getting your way.  You always hear the term the terrible twos and while I would agree with that statement I might also state that for us it started a bit earlier than two.  I also hear a lot about three being so much worse and for now I can just keep my fingers crossed that is not the case.

When you are an angel, you are the sweetest one that ever existed.  You love to give hugs and kisses and have even taken to hugging Mommy and Daddy's friends when they come over.  Your very favorite visitor in the whole world is Maebel...who just happens to be a dog.  You call her Naebel.  Most days you ask if she is coming over to play.  You love playing with your trains right now and especially love Playdough.  We still can't seem to get you to keep it out of your mouth and are constantly warning you that we are going to take it away from you.  Then again, you do have the ice cream Playdough set so perhaps it is wrong of us to make something that looks like food?  Damn Playdough.

Right now you have two favorite songs and when they come on you get excited and say "Mommy, it's our new song!"  You then sing and dance around.  Those songs are, Call Me Maybe and Whistle.  We will not even talk about how inappropriate the song Whistle is or how embarrassing it is when we are in Target and you are singing, "Blow my whistle" over and over.  It's so catchy though and you have no idea what it means so we will deal with that later.  As annoying as Call Me Maybe is I look forward to this one.  I love hearing you belt out the chorus to this song.  I think you are going to have your Mommy's knack for remembering song lyrics!

You have a new favorite book right now called "Olivia and the Missing Toy."  We only just started reading it this weekend and you already read it on your own.  Last night you read about 5 of the pages and really impressed your Daddy and I.  I am just amazed and not only how vocal you are but also how fast you can memorize things at your age.  Oh, did I mention that you are 2 years and almost 4 months?  Again, how that happened I have no idea.

Your Mommy went back to school in hopes that I can not only do something in life that I love, but also figure out a way to be on your schedule.  It's hard right now missing you two nights a week but I also love that you and your Daddy are getting quality time together.  It is so fun to watch you with your Daddy.

Well my little Spaz Nugget, keep up the good growing but slow it down a bit for Mommy will you?


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